It’s the last day of mental health week, it’s Mother’s Day and I am sharing something deeply personal... I don’t expect everyone to understand this, but when you long to be a mother, you may view your relationship with your pets in a different way. My dog Hank was my best friend, he was a member of my family and – to me – he was like my little kid. Being a “dog mother” is possibly the only way I will ever know “motherhood”.
Don’t worry, I know rationally that it’s not the same. But I loved him in a deep and profound way... and I am grieving the loss of motherhood as I know it. I am grieving the same today as I was two weeks ago when he left us. I’ve slipped into a depression like I’ve never experienced before and I simply can’t see through it... yet. Understand it or not, this little guy was like a furry, farting, snorting little son to me. He made my life a little brighter and I’m just not “myself” right now without him snuggled in beside me... assuring me that everything will be okay, like only he could. 🖤
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Valerie
5/12/2019 10:14:39 pm
Sending love and light to you all... Hank was such an amazing little man with an awesome voice. He will live on in so many hearts....
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Sam
5/13/2019 11:05:14 am
Thank you, Valerie!
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Tam
5/12/2019 10:34:01 pm
Oh Sam. I understand. I truly do. I wish there was something I could say to help you. We love our pets with all our hearts, and losing them is beyond devastating. I get it. I wish I didn’t, but I do. The grief will subside. It will take a long time, but it will get better. Sending you tons of love.
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Sam
5/13/2019 11:05:40 am
Thank you, Tammy!
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Micky
5/12/2019 10:55:33 pm
Grief sucks
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Sam
5/13/2019 11:06:03 am
Well said, Micky.
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5/13/2019 09:22:50 am
Oh, Sam, this is beautiful. Looking at Hank's sweet little face is heartbreaking. He was a very special dog. xoxo
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Sam
5/13/2019 11:06:31 am
Thanks Heather. He sure was...
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